Yesterday I was sitting in a normal meditation class when one thought popped into my mind. During meditation the teacher always repeated "just watch your thoughts" and "if a thought comes up just let it got". After saying it a few times it hit me like a stroke. I NEVER ONLY HAVE ONE THOUGHT that pops up. It is more like a constant voice in my head. Kinda like the overvoice in movies. I can only speak about my mind, but I can imagine that I am not the only one feeling this way. So this being told, how do you watch something that is constantly happening? Letting go of one thought, like I'm hungry, my toe iches or wondering about the sound you are hearing is much easier than being used to having a constant voice in your head without even realizing. I think thats exactly the hard part in this. Not realizing that I am thinking. For me it kinda became normal to hear this voice talking inside of my head...and after several years not noticing it is really hard to snap out of it and concentrate on the here and now. But my mom always says that I have all the pieces of the puzzle I just need to put them together in the right order. First I now know just realizing that the voice is there is the first step to make it shut up. The second thing I know, maybe only because my mom and my sister keep telling over and over again, is to accept the voice.
Notice there is a voice (it doesn't matter what the voice is telling me just noticing) and then accept it, without judging or analysing. There is nothing bad about thinking that's just the way it is. I cannot break the circle by thinking about how to break it, that would even make it worse. I would get stuck deeper and deeper in this "thinking-circle".
So for me "change your thoughts and you will change your world" does not mean I have to think more positive, or I have to think less or I have to think this and that... No instead it means be concious about what you think. Know that the thoughts are there and don't force yourself into thinking something else! Maybe thats what the teacher ment when he said "watch your thoughts" being concious about them all the time! Just simply accept the thoughts you have. I think my biggest fear (this is a word I am very concious about using) is to not BE if I stop thinking! But that's total BULLS**T! I AM!! Even without thoughts. I don't need my thoughts to be a human BEING! Thats why from now on I don't like the saying "You are what you think" anymore. For me it is only YOU ARE!! with or without thoughts!
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